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Real, Raw & Uncut

Updated: Sep 2, 2018

My Life Blog


MY JOURNEY INTO A GREAT ADVENTURE | Greetings! Even though our online ministry started through Blogging, I was quickly lead away from this method of communicating after our ministry diverted to mass-emails & social networking. Recently, I have been encouraged to come back to blogging, BUT this time, focusing on personal entries. So here I am - real, raw & uncut.


Recently we launched our new Identity Matters Worldview Institute. A venture that consumed over 2,000 hours from workers, mostly mine. I have had many "ups and downs" through the past couple of years as we were building the system - I have felt like a ship on a stormy sea. Throughout this process, I have been professionally, and personally, evaluated by leaders and workers throughout the world. I have lost many of friends, been betrayed by a host of self-proclaimed ministry partners & left bewildered by "hate-mail." One interested onlooker even said, "You are trying to take over the world." That's my favorite one. Needless to say, I have been challenged to my core!


As I bounce from "pulling-the-plug" to excitement of accomplishing a life-time vision, I am reminded by those closest to me - "Do not fear, for I am with you; do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, surely I will help you, surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand." (Isaiah 41:10) Comforting as those words are to me, my soul still jumps into the pit of self-pity. Crawling around in that dark cave of despair - somehow thinking there are answers written on the walls of my past. Sin really does make you stupid.


Due to my rejective past, my flesh demands evidence of personal value through positive feedback from those around me, which by the way - usually ends in disappointment.


Recently while in the cave telling myself lies, God used my sister-in-Christ, Beth Moore, by asking me "Who told you that?" Within moments, I was came out from being under this cloud of despair, fully focused on what God says is True about me & His mission.


I hate Satan! He is a liar and thief - always attempting to steal our identity in Christ. We are a frail people and in need of everlasting dependence on the indwelling Life. Thank you God for a renewed mind and awareness of Your beliefs in me!

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